there is no perfect mom

i used to think that my mom is perfect.. she can pack us breakfast before school, do dinner everytime she went back from work, she even do all the house chores. I used to dream i could be super mom like her too when i have kid on my own one day.

so when irfan is born, i feel like the urge of perfectionist.. i need to do everything perfect for him.. i read every books, every website about parenting and i feel responsible to obey every rules. and there are peer pressure when people around you keep telling you what and what not to do. it is not easy.. as first mom.. even my husband and i have few misunderstanding about it.

it is not easy, i keep thinking if i am good mother as i wish i will be. will i be bad mother if i give him pacifier, am i bad for letting him cry out loud and the list are endless!

but

as irfan grows up, i find that he is a happy kid as he is.. he will be happy when i just hug him, he will be just happy if i come back home with his biggest smile, he is happy to call me as his mama

and make me realize maybe i am trying too hard on myself

and maybe i should stop thinking to be perfect

I am irfan's perfect mom, at least in his eyes and that should be enough:)

i love your irfan more than you know

Irfan and solid feeding

alhamdulillah, i feel i am one of lucky mom when irfan have no difficulty in food. its been almost 1 month since i start solid feeding and i can say irfan eats everything i gave him! boy! he is one hungry boy:)

I google and buy book on recipe for reference as i have no idea on what/how to give solid feeding. I found these website very helpful!

http://www.homemade-baby-food-recipes.com/

http://wholesomebabyfood.momtastic.com/

and because i am super excited mom, i bought this book

his first puree is apple. his first expression looks weird, maybe try to adjust with new skills then he finish up his puree! yey my good boy! i do sometime follow 4days wait rules as irfan has allergy but alhamdulillah no sign of allergy except during i gave him store bought cereal last week. it seems the cereal has cow's milk and irfan allergic to that. so its means irfan just eat mama's cooking! haha

some of food i tried on irfan:

FRUIT

apple - not his liking but he loves if i mix with other fruits like pears/banana

banana 

pear - he loves this very much especially fragrance pear

mango - he like it but not the sour

grapes - he loves it if we put in his food feeder

VEGETABLE

potato - his favorite

carrot - his favorite

broccoli - ok if mix with carrot, not alone

pumpkin - he like it but pumpkin seems to be gassy for him

i also gave him rusk biscuit (heinz/milna), finger biscuit (heinz/pureen), bottle puree (heinz). he loves if he can hold his food, so i gave hime most of biscuit and some fruits in his food feeder 

yeah i am pretty excited mom actually handling this solid feeding 

formula milk.

Irfan drink his milk quite a lot. I need to supply him 3-4oz per milk session when my MIL taking care of him which means 16-20oz daily. As he reach 6 months old and my milk supply start decreasing (blame on work and inconsistency pumping) , milk alone is not enough to sustain his hunger anymore. So i start giving him solid feeding and formula milk. To tell the truth, i feel so sad when i have to give him formula as I really wish I could continue fully breastfeeding until irfan reached 1 year old (at least) but looking him getting thinner make my mother feeling sadder. Hence, i put my ego and believe i could still breastfeeding and perhaps one day fully breastfeeding. at least I tried my best and continue breastfeeding:).

we consulted Irfan's pediatrician as he has eczema and possible allergy toward cow's milk (i just know that i have the same allergy when i was less than 1 years old) on what kind of fm will be suitable for him. so doctor recommend few types of fm that we can try

a) Hypoallergy (HA) milk - only 2 brands available (Enfalac, Nan Pro)

b) soymilk - few brands isomil, similac, etc

So we tried Nan Pro HA for few days. He drank for first day and refuse on next day. Finally, we found that  irfan like goat's milk better so we gladly change to goat's milk with below consideration

a) goat's milk are sweeter than cow's milk

b) goat's milk is 2nd best choice after mum's milk

c) one of sunnah food

d) low lactose intolerance compare to cow's milk

e) most importantly, low effect on irfan's allergy

we used Karrihome brand and alhamdulillah it works wonder for us:)

as for now, i still keep milk supply for him and goat's milk will be addition on insufficient milk during his stay at MIL.:)

welcome to mummyhood!

its been 6months!

since i enter new life as a mom. it was roller-coaster experience but i enjoying it so much! 

muhammad irfan sufi, a cheeky little my bundle of joy. 

i just hope he will grow up to be happy kid and enjoy his life.